Not just surviving…but…

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So..if you read my previous post…you will see that our family has been blessed with baby no. 3 (he’s almost 9 weeks)…so over the past 9 weeks…hubby went from 2nd shift to first shift…we are homeschooling and I’m at home (for the last year, I was working full time, while the hubby was going to school and homeschooling the kids)…

I’ve never been one to live on a schedule (I’m pretty laid back and to be honest, I’m a procrastinator)…I need to get better at that, but I’m not good at it to be totally honest…and meal planning (we won’t go there…)

Over the past 9 weeks I feel like I am barely treading water…now, kids are fed sometimes it is frozen pizza, chicken nuggets, or tuna packets (my boy LOVES the lemon pepper), the house isn’t dirty (definitely cluttered), but definitely don’t want anyone just stopping by…

I just finished reading The Magnolia Story by Chip and Joanna Gaines and I’ve realized that I haven’t taken time for me (I’ve gone days without a shower or I’ve been in the same pjs for days….like this week…I only seem to get ready when I HAVE to go to an appointment…this book has spoken volumes to me (like I was almost in tears)…realizing a few things:

  1. my home is the best home for my family (dirt and all)
  2. I am the best for the family and to give myself grace
  3. learn to not just SURVIVE, but THRIVE (however that might be for me and my family)

Don’t forget to give yourself some grace (thank you to my close friend for reminding me of this tonight) and just like the picture above is of a magnolia before it blooms….you will bloom and burst open to be a beautiful fragrant flower..(reminding myself of this daily)

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A 2 Cup of Coffee Kinda Day…

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So before I get into what’s been going on since I last blogged…I gotta tell you what happened today…mind you, it’s around 10am…we’ve started school and we have an appointment right after lunch, and baby decides that he is hungry AGAIN (how did those 2 hours between feedings go so fast)…

(if you are a nursing mom or parent of a baby that has nursed, you know that the poop goes through stages…we are currently in the yellow runny poop stage)…well…

I had just finished nursing baby and I hear the noise (you know, the noise…that baby is working on a poop and there probably is some poop in the diaper…for those of you who don’t know what I’m mean…you know when your dog starts throwing up and that fear overcomes you…yeah, similar to that)..so I lean down to lay him on the couch to change the diaper…when…I see poop…it’s on baby from LITERALLY head to toe (oh yeah, he is in a onsie by the way) and I look down and poop in on my hand (which I had just pushed my hair out of my face before I saw it on my hand)…so now, poop is in my hair and on me (remember I was just nursing…so it is on my stomach and my shirt, and my pants…LITERALLY the explosion of century (says all parents when this happens)…

I called my 9 year old over…who is now gagging, but I handed her the baby which she proceeds to  carry baby out in front of  her as if to keep from being contaminated to the bathroom…

As I slowly get undressed to keep from spreading the poop any more…I truly don’t know what to do first…I started the bath and get in to get the poop washed off me, but I remembered that my 9 year old is still standing there holding baby (who is now screaming)…so I lean over the tub to undress baby who we laid on a towel (which we grabbed off the rack)…I have the 9 year old run and grab the wipes and a plastic bag (this is a plastic bag kind of poop)…so I put baby in the bath only to realize the bath is too warm, so I turn it colder, get the wash cloth wet and start to wipe baby (but the water is now too cold)…so baby’s lip starts to quiver…but then I realize that I’m sitting in a bathtub with poop…so I immediately let the water out and turn on the shower (which baby loves) and yell for my 9 year old to bring me another washcloth, because the other one was used to get the poop off…I finish the baby’s shower and hand him to my 9 year old and walk her through putting on the diaper and getting baby dressed (while I’m still in the shower) and guess what the water goes cold…so now I’m in a freezing shower trying to hurry to help baby and make sure all the poop is gone…so when I finish (forget the conditioner…cause it was way too cold to stay in the shower one second longer)…I come out to baby diapered, dressed with a bib and hat and as calm as can be and asleep…and my 9 year old is as proud as can be!

Then, I went a made myself a second cup of coffee (which I never do)…but I needed a moment…we ended up making it on time to our appointment (I was so proud of us)…came home to my second cup of coffee still sitting on the counter 4 hours later…I drank it and didn’t even bother to warm it up…

PS…remind me to tell my husband to check the water heater

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Who Knew…

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So…I’m going to take you on a journey…it’s an open journey, a real journey…for years now I have dealt with having a short fuse, being irritable, cranky, tired, no energy, headaches, brain fog, restless leg syndrome, weight gain, always hungry, irregular periods and feeling like I’m PMSing CONSTANTLY and primarily taking it out on the ones that I’m closest to…it became my new normal…I HATED it…it was like I was on an emotional roller coaster…I couldn’t seem to control my emotions…I could see myself getting irritated and reacting to the situation by yelling and yet wondering “Why am I yelling?”…

Now, you have to understand that I’ve been going to the doctor for 10 years for my thyroid (my primary care doctor never sent me to an endocrinologist, a doctor who studies the thyroid during all this time). I have hypothyroidism. The doctor said for years that I have had infertility issues due to my thyroid so that is why my periods are so irregular and because I have poly cystic ovarian syndrome.

So in November 2016, my period was very late and I wasn’t pregnant. Finally, it did start 11 days late…so I called my women’s health doctor who said that I needed to see an endocrinologist (because this has gone on too long…over 10 years remember)…BUT my primary care would have to submit the order. My husband and I are both veterans and go to the VA…so to be seen by the doctor and especially a specialty doctor can be like pulling teeth!…

So December 2016, I finally was approved and went to see the endocrinologist…I had done my research, at this point, I was tired of taking my thyroid medicine because it didn’t seem to be doing any good (except my thyroid levels were good on the doctor’s charts, but I felt horrible all the time)…so I went in to the appointment with my research. I was in tears because I was so tired of feeling so horrible all the time. I honestly thought that I had adrenal fatigue. Well, I told the endocrinologist all of this and I didn’t see the point of taking the thyroid medicine anymore. So in the office, he opened up my file and the next words out of his mouth have changed my life…he said, “You are taking IRON right, because you have had little to no iron for a LONG time”…I said, “What? No. Why?”…He said, “I know what your problem is….You don’t have adrenal fatigue and if you stopped taking your thyroid meds then you would only feel a little worse than you do now because you have NO IRON! You are anemic.” ….I sat there scratching my head thinking…I feel this way because of my IRON really?

That night, my husband went to the store and picked me up some IRON supplements. I have been taking the IRON since…just one every night…now, the endocrinologist did send me to a hematologist to confirm. One of my levels that they were watching was 13 on December 29, 2016 and the same level was 39 in Feb 2, 2017 (which is getting better!) The hematologist sent me to a GI doctor who confirmed that my IRON has not been at the right levels for a LONG time! I did have a colonoscopy and endoscopy in Feb 2017 to make sure that there was no internal bleeding (which there wasn’t…PRAISE GOD!)

Since I’ve continued my thyroid meds (I never stopped taking them) and I have added one iron supplement at night…I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER…my periods are normal and aren’t as heavy, I go to the bathroom regularly, I feel more in control of my emotions, I’m not nearly as tired…my WHOLE attitude has changed!! (Just ask my hubby and kids…)

Now, I’m not a doctor, but it makes me wonder how many people are taking mood stabilizers (my primary care wanted me on those) or depression meds when they just need IRON…WebMD Iron Deficiency

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From the Heart…

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So I’ve been thinking a lot about what I’m about to say…it will probably ruffle some feathers, but I don’t know if I’m the only one annoyed by this (if so, oh well….)…what is it, you might ask???

Why do mothers seem to always have an excuse or act like being a mother is so horrible? (maybe horrible isn’t the best word)

It just seems like constantly on social media there are all these articles and blogs about about how difficult and tiring motherhood is…and yes, it is hard and it is tiring but life is all around hard at times and tiring at times.

It just seems like like mothers these days act like motherhood is so much hard than ever before…I’m mean mothers have been around since the beginning of creation.

Why can’t there be blogs about how GREAT being a mother is, how WONDERFUL being a wife is, how YOUR CHILDREN are a BLESSING, and how living LIFE is INCREDIBLE instead of how hard being a mother is, what a struggle mothers have, that moms just need a break…

I mean come on, we don’t have to use an outhouse anymore, we don’t have to cook over a fire, we have heat and A/C, we get to grow our own food (we don’t have to because of grocery stores), we can jump in our vehicle and go anywhere, we can enjoy fellowship with others on social media, emails, phone calls….yes, motherhood is stressful, being wife is stressful, running a household is stressful, being an adult is stressful…

It just seems to me (maybe I’m the only one) that mothers don’t realize their STRENGTH, their ENDURANCE, their GRACE, their ABILITY…(and this applies to fathers too) to accomplish what they were CREATED to do!

Hope this doesn’t ruffle too many feathers or step on too many toes…but take a step back (even if you step on a toy), relax and enjoy the little things and being WHO GOD CREATED YOU TO BE…a mom, a wife, a person!

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Loving ME!

 

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So one of my goals this coming year is to devote more time to LOVING ME (easier said than done…). I think as a wife and mother, you are constantly doing for everyone else that you forgot that you are in the mix too…

I want to teach my kiddos that in order to love anyone…you MUST love yourself first. You MUST take care of yourself. In taking care and loving yourself, you will be able to love all.

5 Ways to Love Yourself MORE:

  1. Spend time in the Word (whether it’s 5 minutes a day or more…)
  2. Do something special for yourself (like painting your fingernails and toenails..YAY! (by the way, I did that this morning…)
  3. Do something for someone else just because (if that’s your gift)
  4. Take time for you (schedule it if you have too…after the kids go to bed, early in the morning (it would be before the sun got up for me…)
  5. just LOVE you! Love all your flaws, imperfections…instead of looking in the mirror and seeing what you don’t like…make yourself SEE what you LOVE (that is definitely going to be the MOST challenging for me…)

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NEW! NEW! NEW!

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So it’s the new year…out with the old and in with the new! New Year’s Resolutions (YEAH RIGHT)…like everyone keeps those…so I’ve decided to try to make some simple changes for life, not just because its the new year but the new year does create a opportunity to begin again…

My changes (or potential changes, I guess I should say)…

1. learn to be more patient and not yell (easier said that done…I know all moms struggle with this)

2. take care of me (along with taking care of the hubby, the kiddos, the dog, the house, etc….but no seriously, taking care of you is essential)

3. working more on a cash budget for our food/fun budget.

I’ll be blogging about the good and the bad throughout my changes…hopefully they don’t fail…we will see how that goes…any advice will be GREATLY appreciated!

(Forgive me for no communication through the holidays…it’s been crazy, we’re still not fully moved in, going through boxes but other than that no new updates…moving is more than enough!…hope you all had a wonderful holiday season!)

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Catching You Up…

So much has happened since I posted last…you’ll understand shortly why I’ve been behind on posting…

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WE ARE MOVING!!

(same town, just a little ways away from our current house)

Let me rewind to you will understand our process…about a year ago, we started discussing moving…our kiddos were 5 and 1 (almost 2) and our current house is 3 bedrooms/2 bath (but 1 bedroom and bath are in the basement)…so basically we have a 2 bedroom/1 bath…so right now, our kiddos share a bedroom, our living room is the playroom, and laundry is like a mountain EVERYWHERE (please tell me I’m not alone on that one)…

In February of this year (2016), we paid off our van! YAY!! DEBT FREE!!! (You can see my post about that HERE!) So once we paid off the van, the search began. We looked and looked and walked through many many house…we thought we had found one in May but it ended up falling through due to water and mold issues…so we had to pay for the inspections on the house…so we said, we’re done…we’re not going to look for a while because we don’t want to lose anymore money…In June, our sweet Leia fur baby passed away…you can read all it HERE…tears still…

So a few weeks after Leia passed, it was a Monday morning at 7AM…I get a text from our realtor that says…YOU HAVE TO CHECK THIS HOUSE, I’M SENDING YOU A LINK NOW!…so we got online and looked at it and fell in love…we went and looked at it that night and put an offer on it the next day…God totally orchestrated it out for us…the price, the location, the house (IT FITS OUR LIST) and every detail, even the family that will be renting out our current house…WOW! I said last year at Christmas that this would be our last year in this house, well, my words are not returning void…I’m just amazed that during our grief of losing our sweet fur baby, that God moved and opened this door for this new house…we should be closing Aug 5th (We’re currently waiting on the confirmation from the bank)…so be praying for us…

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